DAY 21- Is it the End of the Road?
The 21 day challenge was the catalyst for me to start blogging again. As I have posted before, I had lost my voice. I was a ship on the waters with no direction. I was lost. I did not know it. I did not realize that I was lost until I started the challenge.
The 21 Day Challenge was a spiritual fast. It was not about abstaining from food. It was about abstaining from things that we place too much importance on. So, for three weeks I have not watched my television. When I started the challenge, I honestly did not know if I would be able to not watch television for three weeks. Anyone who knows me knows that I love to watch my TV. My television was my source of solace, my best friend so to speak. But, I was able to do without television for three weeks without even being tempted. I had have not been on Whatsapp or face book (except for work related posts), no reading of the newspaper, no radio, no gossiping, and no negativity. I know it sounds crazy but I did it for three weeks.
In short, I tried not to do anything that would cause me not to focus on my aim. My aim was to focus on the word of God. I read my bible every day, I meditated on the word of God, I prayed, I read blog posts that were spiritually edifying, I went to church every chance I got (before this I had not been to church in about six years or more). Basically, for the last three weeks I made God the centre of my life.
As a result of this, I started feeling lighter. I wanted to get out of bed in the morning. I did not dread going to work (my work environment is highly stressful). I did not argue or complain as much as I use to. I allowed God to do what he always does, move mountains. In the midst of all of this, I gained a sense of peace. So that, every day I woke up I wanted to do my best.
In short, I guess I am saying that I have learnt that for far too long I have been majoring in the minor. I have been focused on the things in life that are not important. I have been vastly neglecting my spiritual life. I have been focusing on the external aspects of my life and totally disregarding my inner self. I have been so busy trying to be politically correct, trying not to offend, and trying not to be judged for my beliefs that I have swept them under the carpet. I have been trying to keep up to the pace of this 21st century fast food society that I forgot that everything will happen in the right time. I have been trying to fit into what I am expected to do and be that I forgot to be myself. I have been trying to have the American dream in Jamaica instead of asking myself what is my true purpose. So at the end of my 21 days, I can honestly say I get it now. I have realized that although the 21 day challenge is over. The journey does not end. It is not the end of the road. The road is just beginning.